To be or not to be... SORRY....

Dear readers,
I had quite an interesting "yesterday"... i was actually happy to know that i was really booked out for the day... with work then, a luncheon followed by a photoshoot in the evening and the finale my usual asian night out with my asian possy...

While work took the major part of my day away, i did really enjoy the photoshoot... hmm i should get some of those pics to be put up in my blog. My dear friend little miss X AKA the photographer had this really funky idea about photographing my silhuette. So later that evening i was off to get my photos taken with my little foxtail... We will have to see what the finished products actually look like once they are washed.

Later on i headed down to the opiumden (yes i know it sounds cheezy and sleazy but i love it), with Little mr J. Here i was, thinking that it would be another non-event night but soon the gossips started to roll in...

The most prominent one was about little mr T, who had been dating my ex... Little mr M. Little mr T gently broke the news to me about his err break up with little mr M... I dont know what it was that kicked into my system... but i had real mixed feelings about this particular break up. Since the terms of Little mr T and my friendship had always been somewhat akward, i rationalised this because he was the boy who was dating one of my ex's; friends opening the ex-files is almost as dangerous as lighting a fuse to TNT.

Besides little mr T has always been a little bad boy... YES i never really trusted him with my ex's feelings... tis selfish but true. He was the sort of boy who wasnt going to be satisfied with just one "jack and the giant peaches" and this bothered me alot during the years. Especially since i knew that Little mr M was through and through a MONOGAMOUS RELATIONSHIP kind of boy. I wondered why Little mr T decided to let me in on the reasons for his break up before Little mr M could get in touch with me... was this some way of salvaging his tarnished repoire?

I personally am trapped between feeling sorry for the break up or feeling happy for the break up... Tho i think deep down... i feel no guilt in taking pleasure knowing that the relationship is over... This is what they must mean by taking a "guilty pleasure".

xoxoxoxoxo