A charmed life

For those of you who know me well, i have always been alittle eccentric in my ways... coming to terms with who i am is probably the hardest thing i have ever done. Frankly it feels like it is an endless cruel cycle that repeats itself over and over again like a bad movie searching for perfection.

One problem tho, i dont know if i feel like doing anything anymore. The burn for something better than being content isnt there anymore. My endearing lust and passion for becoming a world renowned fashion designer seems to have faded into the evening silence.... poetically dead to the world. I find myself CONTENT with what i have achieved and this botheres me to the bone.... i want MORE but lack the confidence to acquire it.... i know there is more but it frightens me that i am admitting to this I AM AFRAID OF THE UNKNOWN.

I have always known where i was going in my life and somehow charted out a rough map of where i wanted to be in the future.... but it seems like im getting nowhere... maybe its time for a fresh start... a new job perhaps...

on to better things in life lol i am NO LONGER SINGLE... to some i am hmmm perpetually married. (still missing the ring tho)

I have been also updating my MOVIE going files
this includes me catching up on some older flicks such as "the phantom of the opera", "Team America **recomended for the stupidly funny and crude inclined**", oooooooh "MR and MRS smith **** ONLY THE BEST FILM ON EARTH****" angelina jolie is so HOT, and "BRIDE and PREJUDICE (this flick is soooo good lol i had lotsa laughs with it).

nyways im off for now
bbyyee