Dedicated to you.....

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair

Any day it'll all be over
Any day there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
And it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now I'm starting screaming and
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move(What can I do?)
When there's nothing left to sayWhat can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

FRUSTRATED AGAIN!!!!!

if you put two people together and they are constantly fighting over the little things because they dont see eye to eye on anything, does that mean they arent ment to be together? why is it that we find it so hard to say no to one another. I for one personally do not appreciate the crap that this one particular person throws on me. The misunderstandings are terribly petty i really fail to see the validity of the buggers concerns.

picture this scenario.... just to prove to you how complicated this crap is ill write out this one conversation we had over the net....(**) is the person im talking to who in which i am having such a hard time understanding...

(me) ho ho ho how are you?
(**) im fine how are you?
(me) yea not too bad
(**) what have you been up to?
(me) well ive been sending out resumes, the usual...

**intermission** this is the part where smalltalk comes into the conversation**
talk about the day, sending beyonce's new song to the bugger, and also certain japanese translations. until finally......

(**) i wish you were here

(me) huh?? well really?

(**) really

(me) ooh i didnt know you wanted me over tonight... to stay or something...
(me) i tried calling this afternoon to see what was up but no reply soooo i figured you didnt want to see me tonight or were doing something of more urgency. And you didnt say anything about wanting me over just now over the phone..... so i thought id best not press the issue.

(**) well you always make youre own conclusions about these things anyway

(me) huh? wait its my fault that we didnt meet up tonight dispite me calling you this afternoon and leaving a message to try and get a confirmation on what was happening tonight?

(**) anyway...

(me) i dont understand... i did try you know.. and i cant help that you feel lonely because you didnt make it clear to me that you wanted me over...

**then i got disconnected** mind you this was unintentional

and then i get a message moments later while i was trying to get online again which read

(**) how polite to just go offline. im going to bed. goodnight.

so i send a message saying

(me) i got disconnected dummy im online again but youre not... goodnight then.**

then i try calling over the phone to him at his place but no answer ... **obviously when someone says that they are going to bed i assume the would be at home rite.... RITE**

so i message back
(me) tried calling youre phone but no answer. goodnight then.

then he calls back
(**) (in an agro voice....) IM NOT ANSWERING MY PHONE BECAUSE IM NOT AT HOME.

(me) so where are you

(**) im at the supermarket

(me) ahh okay i tot you were going to bed?

(**) whats with the tone of youre last message? (refer to above)

(me) i just wanted you to know that i didnt log off on purpose it was an unfortunate accident that that happened just when we were having a critical moment of a conversation.

(**) (MUFFLED because of background sound he says) jhlagjkhljatlejhdjgnkjeath

(me) excuse me? i cant hear

(**) then he shouts at me "IS THAT ALL!!!!!"

(me) yes thats all.

**end transmission**

you tell me what he is trying to say!!!!