One liners

My dear friend F had this posted up on her blog... i thought it would be fun to do +^_^+

My ex made me happy for at least 6 months

Maybe i should move out

I love electronics (although i may not look like i do lol)

I dont like people who smell

I lose concentration very fast

People say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder... (utter crap)

Love is confusing

Somewhere out there beneath the pale blue sky...

"I will always love you" is too hard to do unless youre god

Forever is the time its taking me to get a new job!!

I never do p.d.a. (public displays of affection)

I think the current u.s. president should be charged for genocide and crimes against humanity

When i wake up in the morning i love to have a loooooong hot shower.....

My past makes me learn to live for a better future

I get annoyed by unpolished and stupid humans

Parties are for me!!

My dog is a stuffed beagle

My cat is a stuffed babylion

Kisses are best when you least expect it

Tomorrow i hope i can live as jesus did

I really want to be healthy, happy and wealthy ( both relationship wise and money wise)

I have low tolerance for arrogance

shoo be doo bang bang

Well its settled then im officially screwed... i have sunken deep into sad songs mode...

1) The carpenters cds
2) The judds cds
3) Diana kralls cds
4) The everafter soundtrack

... the list goes on...and on... and on...

even going to the "market" for the eve of anzac day party ( inya day was there) didnt bring out my inner fabulousness!!! my dear little cm says that its normal to pine over the recent events but!! i am not normal... if anything im FABULOUS!!! besides pining is so last century and not to mention such a waste of precious time.

Is pining on the 21st centuries not to do list? or is it just a general phase that all of us have to go through to prove that we have lived in this world? is it a battlescar that we all cannot avoid? to knock myself out of this rut and stupidity of ending up sad and crying all night long lol im going to go out more and see more things... maybe that will help mwahaha

lets hope i have enough inner fabulousness left to shine +^_^+

Jap - On - Knees

Arrrgghhh!! im soo confused with the japanese thing thats been happening!! im not entirely sure where they get their rocks off by making such a difficult language to learn. I mean what language combines four differnt syntext to form one language? they have "hiragana", "katakana", "romanji" and "kanji"!!! soo confusing!!!

AAAAAHHHHH!!!!! Impending doom arises!!!

I do realise that it is probably my fault for putting shopping before uniwork today but... i cant help it... im addicted to the world of freerange purchase...

Im currently tossing between getting the sixth season of "sex and the city" or another psp game "marvel imperfects" ... decisions decisions decisions...

Now that we are on a roll...

Lately all I can think about is dancing!! And IM getting the itch for hip grinding moments and venting out all those negative energies that have been holding me back from being me and being happy hehe...

Mostly I go with my dear little miss cm but she is off canoodling with her dear husband the computer of late... superthesisgirl she has been labeled... thats one of my party goers down the drain... my other party girl dear little miss cy i think is haha **married** and expectedly living out the role of nicole kidman in the stepford wives at the moment... ( she will probably kill me for writing this) IM LEFT WITHOUT ANY DANCE PARTNERS WHO ARE AVAILABLE AND SINGLE!!!! ooh and dont think you have escaped me noticing you too have slipped into the **married** stage of life dear little miss cm.

COME BACK GIRLS!! COME BACK!!!

Randomly... i spotted afew products that i think would suit me quite well...
a) a cigarette case saying "jesus is the light at the end of my cigarette"

b) a little baby jumper sporting the words " mother sucker"

c) an ash tray saying "I love fags"

d) a nice transparent umbrella with white trim... ( this i have)

hehehehehe

The unspeakable evil

I never ever thought id say this but i have fallen in love again... with a little baby girl by the name of amanda... she is soooooooo cute..... here are some pics

Isnt she just adorable? i cant keep my hands off her... not to mention that she is probably the only baby who would sit on me and not scream her head off... i have to say i felt disturbingly domesticised by the whole event.

** dont you laugh little miss cy and cm. i can hear you choke on your coffee all the way here in burwood east lol**

We had an easter celebration today, we celebrated the end of our little "puasa" (which means easter fast for those of you readers who dont understand malay) by hosting a barbecueue... this was actually a very exciting event in our household because its our very first barbie in Australia!!! yay for us


Mom had afew of her friends over and little Amanda was the centre of attention for me mwahaha .... i never knew i had smothering tendencies until i met this little brat. She is only 5 months old and has a smile that could melt the snowqueen. I spent the entire time juggling eating cleaning up after spills and smothering the little kid with affection and attention. To think she gave up drinking milk to come play with me mwahahaha.

**This is me looking very fatherly**

The downside is that i do realise given my unique circumstances... first of all me liking boys and not being able to concieve a baby for myself lol not naturally possible, second of all i dont think that i could bring myself to adopt a baby and then having to explain why he/she has two daddies.... that would be hard on him/her growing up and me having to be open enough to stand up to the prejudices of being a gay dad. Lets just say i have a very low expectation of humanity excepting gay parents and i wouldnt want my kid to suffer from the choices i made to be gay. Unless humanity realises that any kind of love is good and that its the hate you have to watch out for, i doubt itll happen. Not in my lifetime.

I often do wonder what it would be like to have one of my own... (thus the unspeakable evil)

Until then lol ill stop and admire all the other lovely kids that pass me by.

And on the 8th day there was silence

HAPPY EASTER dear readers +^_^+ hope everyone is getting enough sun this easter. I sure havnt .. sigh** the whole doom and gloom weather of mournly thursday till easter sunday wasnt at all a pleasing sight. I guess it sets the mood for us catholics to re-live the death and rebirth of christ our lord.

hines sight, at least we have a long weekend to celebrate the sloppy weather and snuggle up in bed +^_^+ ... tho having someone to snuggle up to would be good too.

In other family news, i have just recieved word from my dear aunt S, who just went back to malaysia to visit granny, that there has been a runaway scene back home. For sometime now one of my cousins has been in a rather abusive (well i call it abusive when your mom constantly beats / screams at you) mother son relationship. Recent events took a turn for the worse when she sent an alarmingly scary email to the rest of the family offering up her two boys for adoption. Its rather sad to see a mother giving up her kids. I guess it doesnt help when the parents dont get along anymore, its the kids that always suffer.

In matters of friendship, recently one of my friends concocted a cock and bull story about a nonexistant boyfriend that is in the U.K. and has crap for the english grammar. Last friday i had an epiphany and decided to bring up this matter with this dear old "friend" of mine. Im betting that my tough love technique will be able to snap her out of her collision with the delusional world of fantasy boyfriends.

BOYS SUCK!!!! and MEN ARE BASTARDS!!!! i realise the irony of me being in the same clan as them but i am special ... its like they all inherited the bastard gene and the stupid gene together.
AIIIIII!!! frustrated boy!!!!!!! bloody need to dance it off soon or ill go mad in a very big way.

miss cm's comments

Additional prick moments as commented by miss cm's msn conversation

a) he likes to talk about himself all the time

b) he has no idea what youre work is about ( or take notice in youre interest) maybe this is a seperate point alltogeher

c) he is predictable in bed and boring but thinks he is gods gift to man

To break

Well i do think i that it has finally come to the last straw with mr A. I have concluded that this is not how i envision a relationship to be and that it wouldnt be a very smart thing for me to do staying with a man whom in which i will have to spend my entire life spelling out things for his own personal security.

I hardly believe that he thinks about us and that is a vital part of a relationship to me and in fact i am alittle disturbed by the fact that i stuck with him for that long. Let me tell you girls if you ever read this blog... or actually anyone in fact!! the tell tale signs of a arrogant prick is

a) He/she will never acknowledge what you have done for the relationship

b) He/she prefers to meditate instead of spending time with people

c) He/she has no idea what you want for a present

d) He/she doesnt take the initiative to think about what you want/need

e) He/she thinks that everyone else is inferior and asks questions like "why is everybody so incompetant?"

f) Thinks about his needs first above all else

well if you come across anyone who thinks he is a breed of his own and that because of his innate uniqueness no one will understand him, either his mother very disturbingly treated him as a god when he was a little child, or he has a huge ego... RUN LOLA RUN!!!!!

ooh well cest la vie

In addition to my mindless ramlings of today id like to expand on my manual of dating

A) if youre feeling like youre always in the wrong or your partner is always making you feel like youre the one with all the problems, youre clearly unhappy in the relationship time to either have a serious talk about the problem and come up with a solution, or walk away. And i do speak from experience so in addition to rule (A) if he hasnt listened to you or changed even after telling him whats wrong over and over again, honey its not worth it.

b) if you are a uni student and he still thinks that he is in an equal relationship aka. money wise or otherwise, then he is sadly mistaken. Under no circumstances should a partner ever make the other partner feel incompetant or lower than the other. (qoute john:13 i got inspired by the word of god on this one... ) aparently humility is key to getting along.

I dont understand why i personally stuck with him for such a long time, is it because we are all little sadists in our own special way? or was it the fact that i thought that i would never ever end up finding anyone like him again.

In a way i do think that i will never ever find anyone like him again, as he said "i am special, unique actually" yea he is unique alright. soo unique in fact i dont think id like to meet such a unique person again. (mr. A this is me spelling it out for you... THAT IS SARCASM)

**The bet

Just last week my dear dear friend little miss (cy) mentioned to me that I should maybe broaden up my horizons by dating Asians. But of course my immediate reaction to stop such a ridiculous and absolutely absurd rumors that I would end up with an Asian boyfriend, was to set up a running bet with dear little miss cy.

** so the bet is on**

We have waged dinner of the others choice if and only if I ever end up with an Asian boy that makes me happy and keeps me happy for at least a year... (correct me if IM wrong dear little miss cy)

If inevitably I do end up with an Asian man and by god this will never in a million years happen, I should shoot myself between the eyes. I am not saying that I do not like Asians, god I do like my heritage but I would never ever date one only because I would be lacking the one thing that a relationship thrives on.... Physical attraction. (shallow moment) **as the crowd cheers**

This is me trying to psycho myself into believing that dear cy isn't at all right. Not that IM changing my standing with what I want in a man at the moment but what if she has a point... What if I have been barking up the wrong tree all this time... Maybe I shouldn't just play with pink dicks LOL but NAY I know I moved to aussieland for a reason and the reason is that IM just not made to live my life flirting with Asian men... ooh and of course the tiny little fact of actually having more of an opportunity of succeeding here than back home.

Well at least we will know that if I do ever end up with an Asian man that karma really exists in this world. +^_^+

The list

Others have "to do lists" i have a "never again to date occupation list" hmm maybe i should call it a "criteria list".. YES YES i know it sounds rather shallow but come on ... everyone must have one or two criterias.. im just jotting down mine lol

Job criteria the DO NOT EVER DATE AGAIN LIST

a) Psychiatrists /shrinks - they always wanna get into your head (not to mention there are serious pshychological problems with them but they would rather fix other peoples problems)

b) Psychologists - *refer to above reasons*

c) Accountants - mainly because they are stingy little buggers... i mean its alright to be careful with money but being stingy with your time and emotions.. thats a BIG NO NO!!

d) Artists - coz they like variety and thats not good for any relationship and also because they are mostly poor until they die.

to be continued

Thoughts on the dating scene

Have you ever wondered why people so desperately want to find a compatible partner? Is it because we have an innate need to find a mate and reproduce? if that is true then why did god create gayboys? they clearly cannot reproduce with their mates... so why should we still feel that we need to find someone to share our lives with?

Is it true that we need to fill the empty void that only a compatible partner can fill? is there even an empty void that needs filling? and with choosing the appropriate partner are there rules to the dating scene?!!